I made a heartfelt, vulnerable post on my personal facebook relating to Only Fans….and I decided I wanted to add to it and share on my blog. I call it…
“An inside look at the REAL Jenna Starlight”
It’s time to make this official since it’s been steadily doing well for 3 months now.
(Don’t worry, I’m not quitting or stopping anything else I do work wise)
As many of you know, I’ve been self employed for 20 years now. On March 9th 2020 all my income came to a standstill. Within a few months I was out of savings and my whole world crashed.
All of my business ventures took a dive….a nose dive straight into oblivion.
I was left jobless, didn’t qualify for unemployment, no stimulus and all my bills were resting solely on my shoulders. I was out of food for months, my utilities were being turned off left and right or threatening to be….and I was too embarrassed to ask for help (still am!).
Then in September 2020 I was sexually assaulted…again.
Depression set in harder than it ever has before and I became even more of a recluse than I already was.
At the beginning of Dec 2020, my car broke down again, for the 2nd time since my assault.
So out of sheer desperation, on Dec 17th 2020 I started an Only Fans account.
It took a full months earnings on Only Fans to fix my car enough to be drivable again. (Doing the majority of the work myself, with the help of a friend to save on labor costs)
Then it broke down a 3rd time at the end of Dec 2020! (It’s mostly fixed now, but I still have more to do).
So basically, within a month, Only Fans had started to save me.
I am still thousands of dollars in debt bc of covid, my credit is ruined now, still haven’t received a single stimulus (but I’m still trying), my utilities are still threatening to get turned off on a regular basis and NOW there is a very major home repair that has to get fixed ASAP.
However, with all that being said; and even though this is grim there is one VERY stark difference….
Now I have hope…
and it’s all because of Only Fans.
Yes seriously.
So say what you will about it…and judge me (or others) for doing this if you want to…idgaf!
There was no knight coming to my rescue…
There was no light at the end of my tunnel…..
There has never been a hero in my story…other than myself.
So just like every other time I’ve been knocked down so far that I felt like I would never get out…every time I have went to bed hungry or cold or have had to do questionable things to save myself…
I will do whatever it takes to survive.
I will always be my own hero.
I will always stand up to fight another day…
and most importantly, I will always go out of my way to help others that are struggling with the same level of poverty and desperation that I have.
The world is a cruel place and life is always hard….but that combo during a global pandemic with absolutely zero income in sight is especially horrific.
There are things people should never ever have to think about…like having to decide whether to feed yourself or your pets…or whether to buy groceries or pay the electric bill.
Some people, myself included, live our lives this way…now during the pandemic and also before.
It’s been a painful year but it’s also shed light on many issues for me. That’s why I decided to write all this. I want people to hear my story and to start paying attention to the world around them. Pay attention to the people you care about.
Check on your friends, especially self employed, unemployed, single parents and those strong silent types.
I can tell you, they probably aren’t ok and are likely tired of fucking pretending.
I know I am sick of putting on a happy face and acting like I’m fine.
I’m not fine. They aren’t fine.
So please consider how the last year has been for other people and the next time you hop on social media to brag about all the dope shit you just bought with your stimi, when you haven’t missed a single freakin day of work….or you had plenty of savings and didn’t need the help to start with.
I want you to think about people like me.
People that have been on the verge of losing everything and aren’t getting help.
People that don’t know when their next meal is, people that have to choose between taking care of themselves or their pets. People that might lose their home. People who’s kids didn’t get enough dinner the last 3 nights.
People that have to sit idly by and watch you waste money on stupid shit while we are struggling without an end in sight.
Have some fucking compassion. Check on your friends. If you have extra, help people that don’t.
Hell…even during the height of the pandemic with everything going on that I mentioned above, I was STILL was out in the streets helping the homeless via my nonprofit just like I always have…until I literally couldn’t anymore.
I chose to share the little I had during a time of extreme crisis while some of you never missed work, got stimulus money and STILL haven’t given a dollar to someone in need.
Marinate on that.
In closing, I’ll just add that if my Only Fan stats stay the same I will hopefully be out of my horrible situation in just 6 more months. So there is finally some light at the end of my tunnel.
I’ve struggled for the last year in silence bc I wasn’t brave enough to publicly say all this before…but today I am.
For those of you that have helped me via there or outside of there, thank you. I appreciate every single one of you that insisted I accept help bc you assumed how bad things were without me even saying a word. I couldn’t have survived the last year without you. (you know who you are)
– Jenna Starlight March 2021
Now you all know…in greater detail why I chose to start an Only Fans.
Thank you to all my subscribers, past and present!
I literally couldn’t do this without you (obviously! lol).
I have a very long way to go before I have enough food in my pantry, all my bills caught up, and the ability to help people again…but the progress so far is absolutely incredible.
So I just wanted to take a minute to thank all of you from the bottom of my heart.
You will never truly understand how much you have helped me.
Thank you for taking the time to read all of this.
